The fat .VS. The Skinny!

Apparently there's some clothing stores I'm to skinny for, and stores I'm to fat for.... What's up with that?... When I think about all the people that are bigger than me, that can't go to all the ( skinny people stores), and all the skinny people that can't go to the bigger people store's( not that there's a wide variety)....

Ok, So like most things we like to put things in categories, and like most things they want to divide us; ( the public).  Which in my opinion is the reason everyone hates on everyone. From being a child with bullies, to being an adult trying to impress your peers. Everyone at one point wants to fit in some how, and being showed on any kind of media, that (skinny is best), does not help. Now thankfully more and more media and stores have been speaking out about how bigger can be beautiful....

I think all stores should have all sizes, then that way EVERYONE is equal!!

I've heard so many things that people actually believe, and their just appalling to me!

For instance;

- Fat people always wear clothes that are too small...( No... Their will always be people that wearq to small clothes at time, fat or skinny but the reason some people think this, is because when your bigger the clothes don't hang off the same way as others, and even when you wear your waist size people are gonna think its to small because people are use to seeing ( the right people wearing it).

- Oh my god, that girl must be anorexic.. (No, some people are born with a high metabolism and actually are skinny like that.)

- She's in a sport, why is she fat? ( Some people are born with a slower metabolism! )

- Skinny people are so lucky. ( No, some thin people have trouble finding clothes to wear too! And God forbid they have somewhat large boobs, that's sucks, you can't find nothing that fits right.

You know with all this said, their is most likely the skinny girl that doesn't eat enough, or the fat girl that eats to much, BUT at the end of the day WHO CARES. They don't need  a reason to be skinny or fat, that's not what defines who they are.

Our flab or the lack their of, should not be the first thing people see in us, it should be our good personalities..

And if you don't have a good personality then well I can't help you there ...

#Girl power, # Love yourself, # Love each other! 

Two faced or just Nice? Rant!

When does being two face get so easy for some people, when you're befriending one person and hating on them to the next person. When you just can't help but talk, about everyone that trusts you, confides in you and most of all thinks you are their friend. At what point does being a good friend, makes you chose between telling them the truth or lying, or maybe......... the lying would just only be for their own good? Where is the line, between bad lying and good lying?

I've met my fair amount of people in my short life, and no I haven't met more or less than the next person, but I never realized how many liars there are.

People have told me, I trust to easy, but I've just always tried to think the of best in people, until they prove me wrong, because why wouldn't you give anyone a chance? I think I should believe what they say, or at least try to listen what they want to say. ( For the one's that make up a story as their going..) I don't know, maybe lying is a sign of past neglect, attention seeking?

Sometimes you get liars out of the people you least expect it from. Nice people, that; "love you!" Why do they feel the need to show affection to you, when deep down they could care less, or they have other motives? Some would say; "Most likely to gain their trust!".... And, that could be right for some people, or quite a few actually.... Or, maybe they just want to be nice until they find someone better than you...

Than you have the other people, the "tell it like it is people". These people are at times, hated, because people Hate hearing the truth because, the truth hurts, it makes us think about all the self-conscious things we think about ourselves, and if ONE person happens to tell you " their truth", than I suppose that means everyone thinks the same? No, that's completely false, and even me as a girl, I have a hard time even admitting that, because I've been through the same thing countless times, for countless reasons/subjects. From; Asking your partner, does this dress make me look fat, to; Did you sleep with my sister... What are they suppose to answer? Then again, there are bigger situations, and bigger lies to tel out there too. When is it okay to lie?

( How many times have you heard in your life; ( You are _ _ _ _ _), and believed it, or went on your day/week/month thinking of it, some people ( Teens, adults), have even went into depression or committed suicide for what people thought?.....huuhmmm.

  But how are these people worst than the "liars", or the " I'm to nice to tell the truth people". ??????

I'm actually not sure where I would fit in, and I know a lot of people that would slide through the cracks, not everyone fits in a category, in every situation in life. (Everyone, including me has lied a little, some and a lot.)

I just wish people were just honest, and being kind is a pretty great quality, and if you have a kind heart than you have nothing to worry about do you? :) The world would be a much better place if people just accepted everyone in it!..


Love never fails!

Spot light...

I use to think, this would be a dream come true,
Living a life where everything I want, I get.
Everyone knows my name,
No one knows my pain.

Living in the spot light,
Has its gains and its loss's.
Afraid of going outside,
Wishing for one moment, that I could be invisible.

While they try to make a living,
I try to live my life...

Everyday,
Every outfit,
Every bad hair day,
To them, its just an other picture to take.

Walking down the street,
Eyes look me up and down.
Do they really see me,
Or, do they see who they want to see?

I know in a way,
They look up to me.
For some reason, im their idol.
To me, im still the same person,
Just trying to do what I love...

Is love enough

"The feeling you have when wanting to say I love you, but having said it so many times, the words are inadequate. It's as though the meaning behind the words no longer fufills the deep feelings you have towards this person... What is the word I am longing for that would declare to you my true feelings?"

Unconditional?

You know that feeling,

The kind you felt when your first love broke you.

The kind you felt when you disappointed someone, or yourself.



The kind of heartbreak that

You just can’t stop,

The feeling of no return,

The feeling of goodbye,

The feeling of pain so deep, with it has no cure.



It’s always the same but

The last is always worst then the first.



It’s like a shockwave,

Pumping through your heart.

You can’t breathe,

You can’t move.



When your use to being busy,

You forget life,

You stick to your schedule,

Your life is on pause, you’re on autopilot.

Days go by,

Your still there,

Is this real?

Is this really happening to me?



When you stop and think,

You realise everything you’ve lost.

Everything comes crashing down

All you can do is deal

Hope it’s going to work its self out.



What am I supposed to do?

Thorn between people you’ve known your whole life

And someone you love.



All I want is to scream,

I am happy!

Let me BE!

It’s not that simple is it….



Listening is so hard when you do not believe,

When does love become so conditional….

When flesh and blood,

Means nothing…

Mon coeur/ My heart

Original :

C’est très difficile,

Quand je vous remarque.

Ca me marque,

Quand vos mots sont ci facile.



Vous n’avez pas d’attention,

Quand je pleur avec émotions.

Je me sens toute seule,

Quand vous vous moquer de ma gueule.



Ces histoires sont tellement intéressantes,

Quand vote vie n’est pas concerné.

Ca vous donne quoi, vraiment ?

Ca vaut tu la peine, d’arrêter ?



Je vous donne tout mon cœur,

Et vous me le rembourser comment ?

Avec ma douleur ?

Est-ce que sa vous met content ?



Je pensais avoir dépasser ces obstacles,

Mais, vous les ramener.

Je pensais que jetait meilleur,

Mais maintenant, je suis ailleurs.



Je n’ai pas besoin de vous,

Car ma peine et toujours la.

Vous n’avez pas besoin de vous moquer,

Je vis avec ceci toutes les journées.



Donc, ce n’est pas juste un signe d’amitié,

Mais un signe de maturité.

Je vous demande cette faveur,

Avec grand cœur.



Mon amitié ne se donne pas,

Ma confiance est gagne.

Je vous aime, ce n’est pas assez ?

Vous n’avez pas besoin de parler,

Vous savez que vous étés pas obliger.


Je ne veux pas votre sympathie,

Envers mes défis,

Car, je sais qui je suis.



English virsion: 

It is very difficult

When I notice you.

It hurts me

When your words are so easy.


You do not pay attention,

When I cry with emotion.

I feel alone,

When you talk.


These stories are so interesting

When your life is not affected.

It gives you what, really?

Is it worth the trouble?


I give you my heart,

And how you repay me?

With my pain?

Does it make you happy?


I thought I had overcome these obstacles,

But, you bring them back.

I thought I was better

But now I'm somewhere else.


I do not need you,

Because my pain is still there.

You do not need to laugh,

I live with this every day.


So it's not just a sign of friendship,

But a sign of maturity.

I ask this favor

with all my heart.



My friendship is not given,

My trust in you is earned.

I love you, it is not enough?

You do not need to talk,

You know you're not obligated.


I do not want your sympathy,

For my problems.

I know who I am.

When times are tough,
Decisions are made,

Choices are regretted,

Life is doubted.



Time heals all wounds,

Waiting is the price,

My love is real,

Isn’t it what you feal?.”